Level 4

I am starting to wonder how I am ever going to get to be a part of any of the things like this and GIN but I already know – I am going to have to start making enough money to join. I simply can’t get anyone to take an interest in helping me do that. I had to return my Pax NT book just to pay my rent, and now I will not be able to afford it any time soon. I wanted to read it before I returned it but had too much scrambling to do to save my sinking ship. I dropped out of my GIN Local Chapter meeting because it is only for members and although no one said anything, I could sense that when I had to downgrade to an affiliate because of finances that it was frowned upon for me to be there schmoozing amongst dues paying members.
As far as all these online meetings with Mark H. I have watched them only once each (except for 1st meeting because I had more time then), I find it all very interesting, but I will have to see how the rest of year plays out, because you may be losing me… If I manage get stable financially I am going to pursue GIN and perhaps let this Society fall away, I’m not sure.
Just trying to stay abreast of the meetings was hard enough in my situation so I was never able to do the re-reading homework assignments. But I did take a few peeks at some of the stuff about the TVP campaign stuff, I think from emails I got. I was interested to see how that was progressing. Honestly it didn’t look to be going too successfully, at least in terms of actually having an real political impact. And now it’s obvious it didn’t win.
Now I am preparing to complete my final push to leave this country by 2016. I will not stay to watch it crumble into tyranny. I will always stay in GIN though so I may come back for events.