Much food for thought

There are so many gears turning after this one that i am not sure where to begin. The opportunities are exciting and I very much want to be as much of a help as possible. I feel somewhat torn, though, as I have tried many different things over the years to get to where I could retire the value production job so I could focus on writing more songs and getting better and more knowledgeable as a musician and not short-change a romantic love as the music takes so much time. This journey has forced me to really work at how I think and I am grateful for what I have learned and for the positive effects on me. It has not translated into the money area of my life yet so I am still very limited in terms of what I can do and quality of life, but I am working on it and I am grateful for the hope this is giving me and how it is helping me to stay positive for longer.